Our beautiful Journey Begins

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Life isn’t always easy and the road may seem rough and long
Even though we may approach a shortcut, we must stay on this road we’re on
It may get steep and difficult to climb, but with each step we get stronger
We can’t wait to get to the top and once we do realize the road is even longer
So we may pick up the pace and go a little faster and then trip and fall
Then take even more time to medicate and bandage our wounds, this didn’t speed things up at all.
We pass others on this race with a quick smile and hello
We don’t have time for conversation, we have somewhere to go
we think, “Keep your eye on the prize, don’t lose focus, just get to the finish line”
“No time for rest, no time for food or a drink, not now, no time”
Even though you’re getting weak, which causes you to trip and fall again
This time you don’t even take time to medicate and bandage, you will, when you get to the end.
Determined to win this race, no matter how tough it may be
You pass by a few more on your journey, pretending you don’t see
Up ahead you see a crystal clear spring and think about stopping for a taste
But then decide to keep moving forward thinking, “Gotta finish this race.”
Growing hungry, and in a fruit tree close in sight
The fruit looks delicious, would give strength, so appealing to the eyes
But you don’t stop, you’re almost there, don’t give up just yet
Happiness will come on that blessed day, “My rewards will be great, I bet.”
“Because no matter what, I kept going, God will be proud of me.”
“This journey is not fun, but it will be worth it, I know it will be.”
Growing tired, hungry, thirsty, your strenth is almost gone.
You fall to your knees and pray to God to just bring you home
This road is too long, you feel like you can’t go on anymore
You lie down where you are and in a dream you hear a knock on the door
When you open the door, Jesus stands asking you to let him in
He says, “There is a better way than this, let me show you, my friend.”
“It is not just a race with a prize waiting once you’ve crossed the finish line.”
“It’s a journey, a beautiful journey, and I will be with you the whole time.”
“I will show you the way and your life will never be the same.”
“Our Father, who is love, will be with us too, all we must do is call His name.”
“When you get hungry, He will proved a feast for you.”
“When you become thirsty, He will provide a cool drink for you too.”
“When you fall, I’m here to heal and restore, I’ll never leave your side.”
“On this journey, learn from me, let me change your mind.”
“It’s important that you understand things the way that I do.”
“It’s important that you understand God’s love for you.”
“You will meet others on this journey, take it together.”
“Help them the way that I’ll help you, we’re in this together.”
“Many may not understand just like you once had it wrong.”
“Still, our Father never left you, He was there all along.”
“Now with this new life, you have access to everything that you need”
“I’ve paid the price for you, all you need to do is believe.”
“Once you’ve taken this first step, your transformation will start.”
“Transforming the way you see things, the way you think, and what’s inside your heart.”
“I’m so excited you’ve accepted this precious gift, please share.”
“So that this chaotic race through life can become a jouous journey to people everywhere.”
“Just remember to take each step forward through love.”
“The love overflowing your heart from our Father up above.”
“Don’t hurry, don’t worry, I’m giving you a perfect peace.”
“So that no matter what struggles you face, you will overcome them with you and ease.”
“Keep you Faith in God, trust Him to get you through.”
“And remember that God always has and always will love you!!”
You wake up from this “dream” no longer hungry, thirsty, or tired
A feeling overshelmes your soul and you look around to admire
All of the beauty you didn’t notice berore, when you longed for this race to end.
Now you have a new life and your beautiful journey begins.

One Step at a Time

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I wanna give all of myself to you
I wanna let go, I really do
I have faith, but I also fear
You feel so far away, but you’re near
I pray and I believe
But find it a bit difficult to see
Myself the way that you do
And to understand a love so true
Thank you for taking care of my heart
With you, each moment is a fresh start
When I trust you as I run this race
You wrap me in your mercy and grace
You whisper sweet words that touch my soul
Wherever you are, I wanna go
It may not be easy, and that OK
It may get rough, along the way
But your love is my fuel to stand tall
To get up, every time that I fall
Thank you for your perfect peace
That calms the storm inside of me
Transform me to be more like You
The things I say and the things I do
May they help others find hope in faith
To trust you more and not be afraid
I’ve experienced what it’s like to truly live
To receive your love and learn to forgive
Let go, look up, pray, smile, cry a little too
And take one step at a time with you ūüôā

Women of Grace

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God has done amazing things for my heart as I’ve experienced some of life’s most painful moments. ¬†My story doesn’t argue religion. ¬†What I have is deeper than that. ¬†Religion, to me, set’s up a false expectation that the “right thing” is a list of rules, which sets us up for failure, as we judge each other and even ourselves for never being “good enough” yet “better” than those who don’t believe the way that we do. ¬†Does that even make sense? ¬†Does it make sense to dress up and smile, pretending that your life at home and work is “normal” when in reality you feel like you are dead inside, but can’t possibly let anyone around you know the truth? ¬†Not that I don’t believe that it’s important to go to church. ¬†I also feel that it’s important to be real. ¬†I’ve learned that by opening my heart to God, he has asked me to share things about my story that I’d rather not. ¬†In the past I would worry what others may think. ¬†I almost stopped going to church because I didn’t feel like a “church person” yet my heart ached for this love that I started to experience as I joined others in my faith to be the body of Christ. ¬†It’s so awesome to be part of a family, walking through life together, encouraging each other, lifting one another up, praying together, going to have a drink or two together, go out and serve in our community, in our world, allowing God to use us, to transform us, to open our eyes to what we have been missing. ¬†God cares about what is inside of our hearts. ¬†If you have this mindset as you read His word, then you will begin to experience the beauty of His grace. ¬†As I begin to co lead a womens group at my church God spoke to me. ¬†I kept thinking that once I got my life together, then I would be in a place so that God could use me. ¬†What I didn’t understand was that He had a different plan. ¬†He shined His light in some of my darkest moments and the beauty that emerged changed my life and His light can change yours to. ¬†This poem was written for some beautiful women that I was blessed to get to know, women who have stories that many would never imagine, just by looking at them. ¬†These women were once so broken, hope was almost an illusion, but I saw God’s light shine in their lives and watched them transform into beautiful women of grace. ¬†It was healing, so healing for my soul. ¬†He is our strength, the source of our love, and the one who knows all. ¬†We don’t have to have our lives “together” before He can use us. ¬†He’s God and He loves us so much!! ¬†By surrendering to Him, our lives really begin to have meaning.

God has chosen to use broken, weak, sinful people to serve Him and fulfill His plan
When we open our minds to His truth and faithfully place our heart in His
hands
He removes the lies that are buried, he pulls them out by the root
They are gone, yet not forgotten.  They left a set of wounds.
God provides both peace and comfort, as the wounds begin to heal
He plants a seed of life, a seed of love that is so real.
As this love begins to grow, our transformation begins
What used to be a losing battle, we view as one we may win
The awakening is reviving to the dark and painful heart
Even though the pruning hurts, it has an important part
Once all of the bad is removed, the lies that fill the heart and mind
The love  can be absorbed, and what a treasure we will find.
No longer living by a heart that is rooted in shame
We finally have true life, we’ve been given a new name
We are faithful, lovable, beautiful, radiant, we are
and it is by the grace of God that we have come this far
Once buried in the lies, that now truth takes it’s place
Once we lived in shame, now we are women of grace.

Life with no complaining, is it possible? “God help me :)”

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It’s been a few days since I’ve written. To be honest, it’s been a few days since I’ve read my bible too. ¬†My life has gotten a bit hectic, and challenging and I started a new challenge with my youngest daughter, in which the goal is to not complain for 21 consecutive days. ¬†I have been complaint free for 4 days. ¬†I keep saying this out loud, as a reminder. ¬†LOL. ¬†It’s a lot more difficult than I thought and I thought that I was a pretty positive person. ¬†The first 3 days of this challenge, I had to start over, time and time again. ¬†I wear a bracelet and every time I complain I move it to the other arm, but after a successful 24 hour period I use my dry erase board on my bathroom mirror to record each day complaint free. ¬†My mind is slowly changing as well. ¬†I still think thoughts that I don’t repeat out loud at all, or pray for God to help me with my words. ¬†Our words are soooooo powerful and so are our thoughts. ¬†Not only do they shape our character and sometimes blind us from the truth of God, they also give life, and help us develop an intimately pure relationship with our creator. ¬†Our words affect us and affect those around us. ¬†So, I wanna ask you to join me in this challenge, to stop complaining and instead learn with me, how to have faith in God’s plan, how to listen to His voice, and choose our words wisely. ¬†Let’s start focussing on how big our God is, instead of these challenges that come along. ¬†Let’s stand up tall and strong, and move forward step, by step, with a smile on our faces because of the love in our hearts. ¬†We can do this toghether, with Christ leading us. ¬†Please feel free to leave comments on my posts containing your story, your successes, your struggles, let’s do this together. ¬†Let’s learn what faith really means, trusting God completely. ¬†Have a blessed day!

Poem for my Sister – HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHANIE

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My sister and I live states apart from each other yet we are connected by prayer and in Spirit. ¬†She is a beautiful single mother of 5 and has suffered a lot of health challenges including open heart surgery, seizures, and strokes. ¬†She has kept her eyes on God and trusting His guidance, every step along the way. ¬†It’s trully an inspiring thing to see. ¬†I wrote this poem for my sister, Stephanie, around January of this year when Stephanie begin her toughest challenges after losing the use of the left side of her body due to strokes. ¬†I was trying so hard to figure out a way to go see my family and as always, God made it happen and hasn’t healed Stephanie physically yet, however her faith is growing every day:

As I sit here thining about you, wishing there was something I could do
I pray and ask others to pray too, worry and frustrations clouding my view
I love you dearly, more than you know, you may feel alone, but that isn’t so
I close my eyes and hear Him tell me to let go, and not to worry about this today or tomorrow
He told me to look up the meaning of your name and I would see
I thought, “OK???” but when I did, it helped me believe
Stephanie means “crowned in victory” you will make it through this, this is what God showed me
We have to trust Him, He will be our everything!
We are His princesses, His children, He is the king of kings!
We both know the joy that His love brings, especially when we don’t understand what’s happening
I may not be physically beside you now, but you are in my heart and I will get there someway, some how
I’m persistent, like you, won’t be stopped, just slowed down
Can’t wait to see you! ¬†Love you sweet lady, put on your crown!!

Stephanie, you are so amazingly strong!!  You are a true representation of what prayer can do and your story touches so many hearts.  I ask anyone reading this blog to pray for my sister Stephanie and her children, that God will continue to work in their lives.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!  HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO STEPHANIE!  HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

September is Suicide Awareness Month

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Suicide is becoming more and more common, even amongst Christians. ¬†Some may wonder, how could a Christian consider taking their own life when they know God personally? ¬†Is that even possible? ¬† How could life be so bad that anyone would want to take their own? ¬†Why wouldn’t they just reach out? ¬†These are a few questions that I used to ask myself and then one day a lot of them were answered as I, myself, considered the thought of suicide. ¬†According to those around me I was so “lucky” or “blessed”!! ¬†But they didn’t know the story of my heart. ¬†They didn’t know how I feel so alone, even in a crowded room, that I feel like I don’t belong, and no one would really care if im gone. ¬†“What’s my purpose here anyway?” ¬†were the thoughts in my head. ¬†I just didn’t feel “good enough” and so replaceable. ¬†Emotions are strong, SO STRONG!!! ¬†I also used to think that Suicide was an act of weekness, however later thought that it was act of strength as I considered how much better life would be if I weren’t in it, better for everyone else. ¬†And then someone close to me took his own life. ¬†The pain that I felt, knowing that I saw this man mostly every day. ¬†I worked with him, for him actually. ¬†He had a wife and beautiful children. ¬†He smiled almost daily and I saw him the day that he decided would be his last. ¬†I wondered what I could have done, said?? ¬†I often prayed for my job and the people that I work with, we were one big family that was broken by the acts of Suicide. ¬†Shortly after this, another man that I trully admired most of my life, took his life too. ¬†I’ve seen what the acts of Suicide does to those in the life of the one who takes their own, and I’ve felt the saddness, the maddness, the despire, grief, loss that is part of this package. ¬†Im sure a lot of you can relate, altough none of us wants to talk about it. ¬†We are ashamed too. ¬†Why? ¬†Why are we afraid to tell the stories of our hearts? ¬†Maybe afraid of being judged, for being real. ¬†We continue to walk through life blindfolded by the reality that the story of our hearts is what connects us to each other. ¬†This fake costume that we often wear, holds us back from experiencing something so beautiful. ¬†Because beautiful things come from opening our hearts to share our “darkest” parts and allowing Christ inside to heal and connect us to each other, here hope happens! ¬†As I’m writing this I keep hearing God tell me to read Proverbs Chapter 20 because he has something to say. ¬†I will do that now….

Verse 5 says “The purposes of a person’t heart are deep waters, but one who has insight draws them out.” ¬†then verse 6 says “many claim to have unfailing love, but a faithful person, who can find?” ¬†Verse 9 “Who can say, I have kept my heart pure, I am clean and without sin?” ¬†These verses together explain a lot. ¬†God is truly the only one that fully understands the story of our hearts. ¬†And I know that he works through “insightful people” to speak life to “dieing souls”. ¬†But guess what? ¬†These insightful people that God works through, are human, have sinned, and have had life experiences where God has shown himself in their own dark places so now, they can help another by giving hope, offering compassion and sharing the love that Christ offers us all. ¬†Togetherness – when we are the ones in a dark place, we need an “insightful person” to encourage us, walk along beside us, comfort us. ¬†Yes, Christ is our ultimate comforter, ¬†he also intended for us to comfort each other, to stick close together. ¬†The church is known as the “body of Christ” ¬†We are one! ¬†After we experience this life changing connectedness and acceptedness, it’s our turn to help another. ¬†We experience things so that we understand enough to help another. ¬†And God places people along our path to help us, just as he places us in someone else’s path, to help them. ¬†The really cool thing is, is either way, we are all helping ourselves at the same time. ¬†We long to belong, to connect, to be accepted, and most of all to be loved. ¬†So what do we do as a society, as christians? ¬†How do we help? ¬†Verse 24 “A person’s steps are directed by the Lord, how then can anyone understand their own way?” ¬†Let’s start by trusting God to guide us, without him we are lost!!! ¬†And let’s stop judging each other and ourselves so much, understanding that only God knows the true story of our heart and the life’s experiences that we all have been through. ¬†He is the one who also knows where these life’s experiences are going to take us and what joy it will bring along the way. ¬†We just have to trust him!! ¬†We must receive what he has for us!!! ¬†Believing isn’t enough, if we don’t trully receive it.

Please know that you are NEVER alone and taking your life is NEVER the answer.  Open your heart to Christ and pray that he will send you the right person to walk with you through your tough times.  Talk about it. Pray about it and open your bible.  Ask God to guide you to the verses that will speak life to you now.  I pray that whoever reads this will become aware that Suicide is real and so is God.  He gives life, and He makes beautiful things come from ugly experiences when we trust him to.

The Fight for Love

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One day I was sitting alone in my apartment having a conversation with God. ¬†Once again, many, many questions filled my mind. ¬†I have included a prayer from my journal, written April 14,2013. ¬†I titled my prayer to him, “The fight for love”:

“I hear the truth in your word. ¬†I know it, in my heart
Still, lies fill my head, damage my soul and tear me apart
I search for myself, and I search for you
Both seem tucked away, out of reach, not in view
You say that you never leave me, you are always near
Yet, I don’t see you or feel you, are you really here?
I know of your love and your mercy and your grace.
Yet here I am again, in this dark and lonely place
the passion is hidden underneath the hurt and the pain
Where the sun used to shine, now is only rain
The tears fall, but no one sees the story of my heart
I need love too!  Lots of love!  A purpose and a part!
I’m tired of feeling like I’m not good enough or wouldn’t be missed
My heart aches to be held, to be cherished, hugged and kissed.
It’s hard to keep giving, although I really try
when I’ve nothing left to give because I’m so empty inside
I don’t wanna give up, this battle is not mine
you has already won it for me, Christ is the ultimate sacrifice
I don’t understand it all, my purpose and Your plan
But I will have faith in You, stand up and take Your hand.
Your love has never failed me and I know I’m on my way
God take the lies, whisper your truth, comfort me today
Protect me, guide me, equip me for this fight
the fight for love, in a dark world, let me be a light.”

My prayers don’t usually come out in the form of poem, but have on a few occasions. ¬†This was God’s reply to me, and I titled it “Love is here to Stay”:

“The truth is my word and it lives inside your heart
Keep your focus on me, stand up and do your part
Keep searching for yourself, by searching for me
The closer you get, the more you will see
I will never leave you.  I never have, I never will
Even when you walk away, where you go, I’ll be there, still
You know of my love, and my mercy and my grace
your heart has been on quite a journey, which brings you to this place
You feel the pain for those that you pray for as well as your own
It’s your hearts passion to help others know that they are not alone.
The tears fall, and others have been touched by the story of your heart
You need love too, It’s right here, accept it, that’s your part
you are more than you are excepting yourself to be
Stop living on your own, you gave yourself to me
You can’t keep giving if you don’t first have faith in my love
Soak it up, take it in, then it will release, like a dove
flying freely, a love so pure, to share with those you meet
this is your purpose every day… Repeat. ¬†Repeat. ¬†Repeat.
You don’t understand everything that I have in store
I promise if you have faith in me it will be so much more
More than you have yet imagined, Has my love failed you yet?
It will never fail you!  For life, you are set!
I promise if you keep going, you will reach your promised land
When you feel lost and confused, close your eyes and take my hand
The fight for love is the mission as you prepare for today
My love that never fails, My love that’s here to stay!!”

I guess my questions were answered ūüôā ¬†I pray that you know his love and if you don’t I pray that you open your heart to receive him. ¬†It will change your life!!

Proverbs Chapter 16

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I read Proverbs Chapter 16 yesterday before taking my daughter to school, planning to blog after work. ¬†However, one thing leads to another and that never happened. ¬†So I reread Chapter 16 today and asked God “What are you saying to me?” ¬†and “What would you like me to do?” ¬†Before I even started reading I heard him say, “Stop complaining.” ¬†I have been doing that a lot lately. ¬†Well, I didn’t think that it was so much, but maybe I was complaining more than I thought. ¬†I don’t say it all out loud, although I share more than I should. ¬†But my thoughts lately have been on my challenges more than my blessings and my Savior. ¬†As I sit here writing this I laugh a little, wondering how? ¬†How can I stop complaining totally when sooooo much is happening right now. ¬†I mean, I have a right to “explain” myself right? ¬†God says, read Proverbs chapter 16 again. ¬†So I will do that now…

Wow! ¬†I guess sometimes it takes a bit for me to get what God is saying to me. ¬†I have so many thoughts about things that I need to do, how to fix certain problems, and to figure out the “impossible” or so it seems. ¬†I know all things are possible with Christ. ¬†His word promises me this, however, there are times when I doubt. ¬†Verse 3 says, “Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and he will establish your plans.” ¬†OK, well that takes away worry, I guess. ¬†At least I know that I’m not alone in planning my time, which I don’t seem to have enough of. ¬†So that to do list that I seem to never complete, is my own, not His. ¬†It makes sense why I get so frustrated and overwhelmed. ¬†Verse 7 says, “When the Lord takes pleasure in anyone’s way, he causes their enemies to make peace with them.” ¬†As I’m walking with Christ, no matter what circumstances come He has a plan for me and promises to give me the peace that the world can not take from me without my permission. ¬†That’s impressive!! ¬†This all sounds wonderful! ¬†I keep saying that I need a personal secrectary, I have one!! ¬†God! The creator of everything, the source of an everlasting, unfailing love, the one who knows all! ¬†It can’t get much better than that, right? ¬†And a bonus, peace, no matter what! ¬†Wait a minute, why would it be so important that I know that I’m offered this perfect peace? ¬†Then God starts to speak gently to my heart letting me know that a lot of my challenges are part of His plan, and this perfect peace will help me stay on the path that He has chosen for me, when I feel like go in another direction. ¬†Verse 32 says, “Better a patient person than a warrior, one with self-control than one who takes a city.” ¬†All along, I’ve been trying so hard to be strong. ¬†Now, I’m starting to see that being patient takes huge strength, especially when things don’t make sense or feel so overwhelming. ¬†I love the way that God touches my heart with his affirmations and guidance. ¬†I pray that you become aware of His presence in your life and you allow Him to plan you time, and be patient with him when you feel like He isn’t being fair and ask Him, what He wants you to see? ¬†He will tell you. ¬†ūüôā

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funtimesmygirlsMy name is Teresa, a single mom of two beautiful daughters. I began to write, years ago, in a prayer journal. I would write my prayers and concerns often and then one day after writing a prayer I picked my pen and continued to write. After finishing, I read the answer to a few of my prayers. God began to speak through me. His wisdom guides me, when I listen and obey and my life has changed. What I share here are bits of my story and how His glory has given me a joy filled life during some of my darkest moments and filled total chaos with a peace that can’t be explained. My hope is that someone else will also receive hope through my story by His glory.

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Proverbs Chapter 15

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Tonight I read Proverbs 15 before going for a run with my daughter. ¬†I’m still trying to catch my breath. ¬†It has been awhile since I’ve run anywhere. ¬†I’m also making dinner and then we are doing our nails. ¬†It’s girl’s night!! ūüôā ¬†I love nights like these! ¬†So my time is very valuable to me, and it would be easy not to find time to read my bible and write here, but I feel like God wants to say something. ¬†I used to be so confused when I read Proverbs. ¬†It kind of sounds like a bunch of riddles, especially some translations and they just didn’t make much sense to me. ¬†That was before. ¬†Now, I understand why it’s called the “living” word of God. ¬†It really gives us “life” in a completely simple yet challenging way. ¬†Let’s start with the way that we talk. ¬†In verse 1 it says, “a gentle answer turns away wrath”…. It totally makes sense, if you think about it. ¬†So, why aren’t we “gentle” with our words all of the time? ¬†See, simple, yet challenging. ¬†Verse 4 says, “the soothing tongue is a tree of life” … that’s pretty powerful. ¬†As Christians, if we are meant to be Christ like than we came to heal the sick and raise people from the dead, give life. ¬†It can be as simple as the words that we speak to encourage another, giving hope, and opening hearts to one true love, the one who gave us life. ¬† So much needs to change in the world, but where do we start? ¬†We start with the heart. ¬†First our own. ¬†Why is it important to read the bible? ¬†To have a relationship with Christ? ¬†It gives life to our heart. ¬†And then we can allow Christ to walk with us on our journey here as we give life to the hearts of others, which also gives life to our own hearts, again. ¬†It’s a double win!! ¬†Verse 13 says, “A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit.” The best way to feed a hungry heart is with the love of Christ and the freedom that this love brings to our souls.

Now it’s time to ask ourselves… what is it that you want me to see, God? ¬†How does this apply to my life? ¬†What do you want me to do? ¬†Now let’s listen to His gentle, sweet, voice that gives life to us all.